You're right, I joined PBSM solely for the purpose of staying in college in the first place. What with the "double merits" that we were gonna get, I thought to myself, "heck, Imma join PBSM if no one else would." And then to not be a sleeping member and risk my ass getting kicked from college, I joined PPC. I admit PPC was fun, but at the end of it I never expected to become a board member. But what the heck! We were all pressured to become board members. I am not saying I don't like helping people, but what do you expect me to say when we are trying to do JUST THAT and everyone else just wanna campur tangan and make our lives miserable? I am not going to name names here, there'll be a big hooha if I did. But you get the point.
The disturbances are external. We are fine with the seniors and juniors but other than that, those people who are SUPPOSEDLY "helping" us are actually backstabbing us, and it has not made our job any easier. I would very much like to do what some people do, go home every weekend and not bother about any cases during the weekend. But I can't. Because my hometown is in JB, but the main reason is that I have GUILT. Unlike some slackers, I can't worm my way out of duties without feeling guilty to my commandant. When I say I can't duty, it means I HAVE 1REPORT TO HAND UP, 2 QUIZZES AND 2 MIDSEM PAPERS IN THE SAME WEEK AND I HAVE NO TIME TO PREPARE FOR IT BECAUSE OF DUMB FAC NITE [I AM MC] AND BECAUSE I AM POSTING AN ENTRY TO REPLY YOU.
The disturbances are external. We are fine with the seniors and juniors but other than that, those people who are SUPPOSEDLY "helping" us are actually backstabbing us, and it has not made our job any easier. I would very much like to do what some people do, go home every weekend and not bother about any cases during the weekend. But I can't. Because my hometown is in JB, but the main reason is that I have GUILT. Unlike some slackers, I can't worm my way out of duties without feeling guilty to my commandant. When I say I can't duty, it means I HAVE 1REPORT TO HAND UP, 2 QUIZZES AND 2 MIDSEM PAPERS IN THE SAME WEEK AND I HAVE NO TIME TO PREPARE FOR IT BECAUSE OF DUMB FAC NITE [I AM MC] AND BECAUSE I AM POSTING AN ENTRY TO REPLY YOU.
I just had an emotional breakdown a couple of days ago all because I have been keeping myself to PBSM for too long, and I lost my own personal space. I really did. Only 2 people witnessed it, my friend from college and my roommate. We have no excuse to slack just because we are not paid, I understand. But those people whose accomodation is paid for, do they do what they are supposed to? Not all. So, EKSKEEOOOOS ME if I complain.
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