Of Fats and Fatlogic

This is how we be rollin' on 2SCB now

So... don't know if anyone's reading this...just need to rant. That's about it.

For those who haven't been bombarded by my constant bragging on FB, I've been doing this "weightloss" thang since September last year, and everyone's been utterly supportive. Here's the gist of how I got started, and challenge(s) I faced. Also, a rant.

When I was a hamplanet  stuffed with fatlogic between the folds of my fupa, I've always been told by my family that I gotta lose weight for health reasons, that all sorts of chronic diseases come from being fat (i.e. the beetus and clogged arteries and shit) and that if I ever got so sick I couldn't walk or had a heart attack or a stroke, they wouldn't be able to carry me to the hospital, much less care for me if I ever got bedridden.

I knew all the risks, I read about it everywhere, I watch it on TV all the time. I'm a science student FFS, of course I know the health risks that come with being fat. But that did not stop me from growing sideways exponentially. Food was too good to give up, laziness was to be had all the time, I don't like sweating, I got no time, gym membership's too expensive, blablabla (insert more fatlogic excuses here). In a nutshell, I knew I was unhealthy and living an unhealthy lifestyle but was too lazy to do diddly squat about it.

I feel like I kinda lucked out when it comes to how I got started to change my mentality and got motivated to lose weight.

In mid-2013, when Clark Hatch had long evacuated City Square, there was going to be a new gym opening soon, and they were promoting early-bird signups. So this colleague of mine who's also a chubby fat person (we'll call her Fergie) had another friend that she wanted to be gym buddies with, but that other person bailed on her or something. So then she started to recruit me as a gym buddy, and I was real hesitant at first. Coz, you know, this shit needs work and effort and I'm lazy. Plus it didn't help that I am a hot hot chicken shit kinda person.

I was thinking, "what if I got lazy and didn't go as much, I'd be wasting money there". However, seeing that the signup was cheap, and there is a high chance of me keeping it up due to proximity, I thought, heck why not and decided to go for it. Contract was signed, card was swiped, sweat was formed on my forehead as I felt trepidation. This is it. I gotta get off my ass and do things now...

Oh god what did I do

When Jatomi finally opened, we were kinda excited to get started. We tried pilates (which we were terrible at since we were so fat we could lift our legs and do pilates stuff) and bootcamp/Aussie aerobics for the evening studio classes, and had morning cardio and weight training exercises. We had the fire, and we were there every weekday morning.

On top of working out, I started to work on eating less and eating less crap (yes it's hard to cut crap out of my diet, so it's work). I've seen how Ming Eng does it. She could come out with us and always say she's hungry. And yet when she eats, it's never the full portion of the carbs. McD? Yeah, she had that. With less bun. Noodles? She had that. But not finishing all of the noodles. 

What I'm trying to say is, I didn't want to approach controlling what I eat by cutting out food altogether, starve myself, or having those bloody shakes for 3 meals a day. Coz I know that kind of eating habit cannot last. And now that I've seen with my own eyes how Ming Eng can still enjoy food but just with smaller portions and watching the type of nutrients she consumes, I know I can do it too.

Up until before Christmas, both Fergie and I were quite consistent and both of us saw results. We were excited and it kept us going. 

EEERRRRRMMMEEEERRRRHHHGGGEEERRDDD

Then Christmas came around the corner and Fergie started getting busy preparing for the festive season and was less present for the workouts. Fine, I can do my own thang. I kept at it until CNY rolled around. I had applied for a 2-week leave and that kinda meant that I was going to be away from the gym and calorie-burning routines if I got too lazy to go jog around my house or drive to the gym (excuses excuses). By the time my leave was over, we were both slacking and had plateau-ed. 

That damned law of thermodynamics

By that time I'd lost around 20kg (remember, that was from Sept to early 2014, prolly 4-5months). I realised that the reason I plateau-ed was that I was doing the same things I did when I started. I should have more energy and strength to try doing harder things but didn't. Realising my problem, I quit slacking, worked a bit harder these past coupla weeks, and I saw results. I started to pick up the weight loss again and had some other non-scale victories (NSV for short).

Being able to fit into my old pants that I outgrew years ago was a catalyst. I got even more motivated to jog on Sundays. I started seeing results again, and I was happy to share the news with my gym buddy.

FUCKYEAH. lookit datass

Given that she has a different kind of life (in her 30's, 2 kids, one of the 2 main sources of income for her family), she has had more difficulties than myself to be consistent at the gym thing. There'd be inevitable commitments to her family that will cause a few missed gym days. NBD. As long as she controls what she eats at home, go jogging on the weekends she'd be fine, right??

Now this is the part where I tie in what I mentioned in the beginning about fatlogic. I've been reading loads of /r/fatpeoplestories and /r/fatlogic to see what I've done wrong in the past and also to constantly remind myself to not think like a fatlogician. Learning of the fatlogic that people encounter everyday, made me realise that

1. I had shit tonnes of fatlogic and my friends definitely saw it but they were really nice to me about it. Never gave me grieve for it, but always subtly trying to nudge me to think of food and health with actual logic.
2. Fergie had boatloads of fatlogic.

I used to almost never turn down a snack offered to me. I took pride in my ability to eat mega-mounds of food. But since having a change of mentality, I learnt a little something called self-restraint. People around the office would come around and offer a chocolate or an ice cream. I'd accept it out of politeness but give it to someone else. Try as much as possible to cut down sugar in my drinks. Again, my role model is Ming Eng (WOMAN DRINKS TEA WITH KOSONG SUGAHZ. MMKAY?). I have less of the hamplanet approach to life now, is what I'm trying to say.

Fergie? Takes less sugar that she used to, but still, she could do with less. Still buys putu for dinner. Doesn't really push herself to do harder things to break the plateau. Whutevs. I mean, I'm not gonna judge if she was okay with her progress (or lack of). However, I got jimmies rustled when she recently  displayed some whale-sized fatlogic with one of her whines. Convo that took place went something like this

Fergie: You've been getting smaller and smaller eh (genuinely glad for me)

Me: Yeah

Fergie: You know, my fats are like yellow fats, they're really hard to lose. Not like yours. Yours is like water weight, you just have to sweat and you can lose weight easily.

ALL OF MY WUTS

I didn't want to start an argument with her fatlogic in case I lose control and start choking her with my Nike shoelace. So I shut up after that. Just walked away and hit the showers. She is genuinely a nice person and I didn't want to lose this friendship. 

This happened last week and till today, my jimmies are still rustled. Her comment negated all the work I put in. So here I am, trying to sooth my jimmies so I don't become a pressure cooker and explode the scalding pork stew in her face. 

Here's to me and my journey of leaving obesity behind. 

BRING IT, FATTY CELLS AND GRAVITY

ROJAK! I AM BACK!!

Haaaaaiiiiii~

Its been so so so so long since my last post. Before I start my post, a ZILLION TENKIUK to rojak for keeping this alive, never forgetting our story, and not forgetting to have a new cover for this awesome blog!

Oh well, 2012 is coming in 24 hours. I wouldn't want to recap what I did in this year. I've listed what I would want to do in 2012, because for no reason, I am so looking forward to the NEW YEAR!


1. For the past few years, I have the habit of having new stuff for new year. 2012 would be same. I will be having something NEW.
2. I wish to have a healthy body and don't get sick that often. ( I remembered having high fever for 4-6 times in 2011)
3. I would want to shed another 5-8 kg of my body. I want slim slim!
4. To change half of my wardrobe clothes cos the clothes bought last year seem to be bigger ( Did I just say shopping?)
5. To dress nicely everyday =D I don't seem to posses girl's ability to pose in front of the mirror for 24 hours.
6. To travel to the places which I have planned * fingers crossed*
7. Spend more quality time with my parents.
8. Smooth sailing relationship with seng-kor ^.^
9. Last but not least, to meet up at least monthly with my siaochaboS.

Ah, I think my resolution is not that hard. Achieveble but need hard work epecially 5.

Finally to end off, DFTBA! ( RJ, thanx for letting me copy)

Turns out

That I still think about it. A lot.

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Oh my ears.

I once had an ear infection. It was a terrible experience.

After many times of follow up at Serdang Hospital, it was finally under control.

Since then, I've gotten a job that requires me to use headphones/earphones.

The dreaded ear monster is back. Fuck.

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I miss you friend.

If you were still here you'd be 25, quarter of a century old.

We are growing older, tits getting saggier,and turning more jaded with life.

But you my friend, you are forever young, forever innocent, forever cheerful and happy.

Most of all, you're forever 18.

I miss you terribly, my friend.

Happy birthday, dear algamon :p

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On my free day

Mode: Free, chilling in the living room. Rainy outside. Kinda wanna poop.

 

Some time ago, I started to use the developer’s timeline version (how to get it) of facebook and it’s pretty cool if you have the time and effort to edit the banner for your facebook profile.

 

 

My mediocre attempt on my profile looks alright and i lubs it…

 

Today, since I’m kinda free (actually I need to return my library books, get my ears checked out blablabla but I can’t be arsed) I messed around with the functions on the timeline and I discovered 2 things:

 

1. You can feature a certain post by giving it the “big up”.
   A normal post looks like this

   

   A featured post looks like this
   
   

2. You can totally cheat your timeline.
   Let’s say you forgot to post something earlier and need to post it now: there’s a way for you to set the date of the posting. It doesn’t allow future posting though. Which sux.
   And if you want to change the date of your post AFTER you’ve posted it, you can. Ain’t that awesome or wut. So totally using it to hide my movements to the people the prying eyes of the office pricks XD

 

Can’t wait for FB to release it all over and see everyone bitching and whining about it hehehehe

Movie Reviews from a wallet [Part 1]

I've been keeping a bunch of movie tickets (when I end up holding the tickets, I get to keep em. Other ppl tend to just throw them away) in my wallet from the movies I've gone to. The reason I kept them was for record keeping purposes (cos I can't remember what movies I've watched).

And since I have a bunch of them now, I thought, "why not do a movie review for each of them?" However, some of the movies were from a very long time ago so it might just be dot dot dot that I come up with. And the reviews ain't gonna be like professional reviews, y'know?

And in no chronological order (coz I'm lazy like that), here goes...

Gulliver's Travels (4.5 / 5)
I remember Jack Black and Emily Blunt and that cute guy Jason (something. I remember him from Forgetting Sarah Marshall). Wait, lemme go a Google search.

[New tab Google search]

OK yes, his name is Jason Segel. Now back to the review. Nice movie, as usual, anything with Jack Black just pwns. Next movie.

Resident Evil 3D (0.5 / 5)
[Did you honestly think there was going to be more than that in the last review? Nope. It's just random crap about each movie. Coz, like I said, I'm lazy like that]

I have a lot of love for the past Resident Evil movies because there were a lot of awesome fight scenes and also the plot just moves along and blows your mind like BAM BAM BOOM BAM (cue Jackie Chan with hurt knuckles).

Naturally, I had a lot of expectations for this one, and with it being in 3D and all, I nearly shat my pants in sexcitement when I saw the trailer for it.

But I ended up regretting paying RM16 for what I already got for free. The only exciting parts in the actual movie were already in the trailer. There was nothing new, and there wasn't much plot. Just a stupid Val Kilmer lookalike who died very easily in the end. [I just spent 5mins googling Val Kilmer coz I forgot his name]. And there wasn't much action so whichever action was there were in slo-mo. SUX.

Kung Fu Panda 2 (5 / 5)
Hell Yeah another Jack Black movie!!!! Wasn't expecting a sequel but in true Hollywood style, they made one! And it's AWSUM!!!

 

It’s got the same level of funny as the original Panda movie and the ending made me cry. Actually if I remember correctly, the movie made me cry a few times throughout. Can’t wait for the third one, the cliffhanger damn near killed me >.<

 

Old Dogs (? / 5)

I can’t remember much from this movie, but I think it was about a bunch of old men trying to come to terms that they are now senior citizens????

 

Legion (2.5 / 5)

Again, don’t remember much from this movie, but I think it’s about some battle between angels and their allegiance towards God and them questioning God’s will, or sumfink liddat… I think there were also scenes where these guys fighting to protect a pregnant woman coz she was about to give birth to our saviour. Kinda a meh movie.

 

Tooth Fairy (2 / 5)

Talking about meh movies, this kinda sucked ass. I’ve always liked The Rock, but him taking the path of going waaaaayyyy too Disney with this one is something I cannot tahan. TUTU. Damn FREAKING TUTU. KAMON?!

 

2012 (4.5 / 5)

A good number of people thought this one to be a meh movie, but I liked it due to the fact that I really want the world to end really soon. The Earth has been crawling with too many creeps. We need some cleansing ritual here. And also, the scene where the Earth collapsed underneath the plane, that scene got me friggin’ scared. Srsly.

 

Seven down, ??? more to go. Peace off.

Awesomeness continues

Today, 2SCBs went to siao all over Sutera Mall and CS. 

Ate some good food.

Talked some crap. (ok, a lot of crap)

Did some shopping.

Talked more crap.

Laughed and made merry.

It was a good day. 

:)

I didn't forget to be awesome.

Yesterday was a good day.

1) I wore my PizzaJohn t-shirt and I got quite a number of stares (go google) and I just can't help but giggle whenever I detect someone staring at my shirt XD

2) I managed to get Great Gatsby that I ordered from MPH. (side note: never ever let yourself be serviced by a girl named Dini. She's the skinny, bent-over girl who types goddamn slowly). So now I can boast that I own even more books that I have not gotten around to read.

3) While getting home, I rode the same elevator as my Bollywood star lookalike boss (he's really cute, ask the girls in the office and they'll agree). We small-talked while I was walking to my car and he to the temple (he always goes to the temple). In general, I just hate small talks, coz I never know what to say but yesterday was different. It was like a fangirl talking to a superstar, you know? He's married btw, and his baby is due anytime soon :D

4) When I got home you know what my mum found in the mail? ELLEN HARDCASTLE. It was shipped by the record company on 7th Sept and I was starting to worry that (a) it has been lost or "lost" in the mail (b) the customs had considered it violating some copyright law or some entertainment industry law and "confiscated" it. Thank god it arrived safely :D

In conclusion, I had an awesome day :)

You have an awesome one too. DFTBA.

VOILA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The video of our rehearsals!!!

Ok, so the videos are shitty. I managed to get the beginning of the song in the first vid, and the ending of the song in the second vid. But you're only missing one chorus, so that's ok. 

Here goes!

Good day to you!

TADAAA!!!!

New blogskin!!!!

I've been doing grown-up stuff lately which is the reason why I've not updated for a very long time.

I've recently come across videos from 2 brothers on Youtube and their channel is named vlogbrothers.

Basically they are brothers John and Hank Green and they had a project called Brotherhood2.0 (like Web2.0, geddit?) in year 2007 whe in the whole year, they would alternate weekdays to make a vlog post. EVERYDAY.

It's a very interesting project. You can see them talking about their lives, their family and their wives and all. And most of all you see them happy being nerds. (the best part XD).

John would frust about writing his books and Hank would talk about green tech and sing, they're just real talented nerds.

For me, it's just embarrassing to talk in front of a camera and also I like to hide behind paragraphs so watching them do it is so much cooler.

Also, watch this vid of Hank singing about Harry Potter :D

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Ok about me, owner of half of 2SCBs stocks.

Work is stabilising, don't have to stay that late anymore nowadays, so that's good news.

So whoever's reading this probably already knows I work for Citibank (URGH OPPRESSED CORPORATE LAMB, I HAVE BECOME ONE). And the phone banking department is called Citiphone.

Recently, there has been a competition for worldwide (i think so?) Citiphoners to take part in a "Citiphone Got Talent" thing. Citiphoners have been rallied to submit their own songs and they would filter out the best one to represent APAC.

And, one of our very talented Citiphoner named Faidzal (really cool dude) already had the melody down so it's just the lyrics and the singing and whatnots.

I took interest in it and signed up with a few other people. We composed the lyrics to the song, the musicians took care of the music and we... recorded. (so yeah, i'm a recording "artist" now. BOOYAKASHA!)

We submitted the song and it seems that... we were the only team that submitted. The song got disseminated to the whole platform (spamming everyone's mailbox lol) and people liked it so much that we...

...were asked to guest perform at our annual dinner.

ooooookaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy....

Nerves. Bundle of nerves.

However, come the night of the event, I wasn't so nervous anymore. I was excited: excited to the point you might say I was SEXCITED W00T!!!

And so we marched up the stage and... it felt so un-nervous coz (1) there were other people (2) I was only singing background (3) there was spotlight in my eyes so I could see the audience at all, so thankfully I didn't have to imagine these people naked to overcome stage fright.

We had great fun and I hope we could win this regional thing so we could record a more professional and better edited version of the song.

I'd let you all listen to the song but unfortunately I don't have a copy of it (yet).

But here are some photos from the rehearsals :D

dumb bimbo

1. You talk as though you are farting. No filter to what you are saying, and no real content in anything you say.
2. You sing like shit, but always love to hog the mic. 
3. You always ask the same stupid questions. Again, related to #1, since you never really have any relevant things to talk about. Just crap and bullshit coming out of your mouth.
4. You don't have any constructive topic and yet you keep on talking. You also like to repeat what other people say, as though YOU said it first.

 how the hell you got through school ah? since your brain is full of nothingness?

该怎么走？

两年了。

我只是听到我，而不是我们。

我看不到我，在哪里。

是时候，该转身就走。

cease questions

我有点怕你。

我想逃。

每一次见到你都是在听你说你男朋友的事情。

虽然我选择单身，不会觉得desperate for男朋友，可是你没完没了的一直讲你感情的事让我觉得很反感。

你如果是偶尔讲一下我还OK，可是当我们的话题都是关于你跟你的男人的时候，对不起，我想避开你。

**AMARAN** Complain post ahead.

ada satu benda yang i cannot wrap my head around is...

kenapa orang yang upload gambar tak boleh kasi rotate balik if the gambar is not in the right orientation ah???????

apa point kalau upload macam tu? orang nak tengok pon susah, lagi baek skip tak tengok! macam tak guna kan upload ini macam?

so, please la... sesiapa yang tangkap gambo yang orangnyer dah terbaring, tolooong lah pusing balik, baru lah manis tengok. tak susah kan, guna fungsi rotate yang sedia ada kat facebook?????

Opinion

I CONCLUDE THAT YOU ARE AN ABSOLUTE

AIRHEAD

macro. HOLY SHI-

today i decided to play around with the macro function on my cam.

coz you see, even though i'm not using them expensive big black DSLR, this is my first time using a more than fairly decent digicam and i'm kinda suaku about the functions.

so i took the macro function for a test drive and...

reflection of my couch

fabric texture

pomelo

i found the results of the macro function very satisfactory so much so that i...

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

The annoying past catches up

I had this aunt (the youngest of all aunts) who is a camwhore.

My bro and sis suffered her camwhore ways when they were very little. The older cousins of mine (about my sis and bro's age) all went through the days of being models for her camera.

And due to some family disputes that I will not get into, I haven't seen her and some other aunts in many years.

And then this year. At my uncle's house. Even though we went there early to avoid all the other relatives that we do not want to see. MISS PEGGY APPEARED.

I panicked. I didn't even want to get any ang pau from her. Wanted to just get outta there. But she seemed friendly, so my family and I played along. And then the horror began unexpectedly. SHE TOOK OUT HER DIGITAL CAMERA. OH SHI-

For a person who took beratus-ratus pics with a film cam, what happens if you hand her a digital cam? A way of creating infinite pictures? PHOTO AVALANCHE.

Here's her FB profile, I think she only set it up for the pics. She most likely did not privatise her pics, so I guess anyone who's interested may view her gallery of photo diarrhoea. 
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001627915591

Thank god she hasn't added me on FB. Even if she did I would not approve of the request >.<

Actually, her being a camwhore is not what I hate about her. It's her hypocrisy that pisses me off. When my paternal passed, the family has to kneel beside the coffin when it's being carried out from the funeral home. At that point of time I felt really upset and was torn up inside about how I could've been a better granchild to my grans. I was crying on the inside. Silent tears.

And this Miss Peggy, the drama queen nudged me with he elbow and told me to cry louder. She kept egging me on. To me, I was sad. That was enough grief for me. I didn't have to show HOW upset I was. I didn't have to put up a show. And that stuck with me for a long time and I hate her for that. She made me feel so ridiculous at that point in time.


And this CNY, when she came to my uncle's house, she tasted the food my uncle's wife prepared and one of them was a specialty of my gran's. And then she started drama again la. She started saying that she misses her mum. No, she did not just SAY it. She was ber-drama-ing. Imagine how a stage actor has to overdramatise his voice and actions so that audience at the back of the theatre, that's how she reacted to the food.

GOSH.

how does it feel to...

be a girl who is always sponging off guys to get favours in return?

recently there's been a girl whom i noticed has been hanging around different guys. well yeah, a girl and a guy can have a completely healthy, normal, platonic friendship but that's not what i've been seeing with this girl and the guy she hangs out with.

but this girl's actions show that the "friendships" she is having with one guy after another are not pure friendships.

anyways, her relationship is not the concern here. the thing i'm wondering about is how she actually makes use of these "friendships" to get benefits in return. something say, like a ride homeevery night. doesn't matter if it's with different guys, as long as she gets a ride home.

let's just assume they are not sleeping together, but why would a girl whore her affection out like that just to get favours like this? it's ok to use one's charms to get a shortcut once in a while but making this a permanent way of living their lives? how does it feel to not have to use your own effort to get by life?